I’ve recently got really into tarot cards and the like. Well, I guess not “recently,” since when I was a kid I had dreams of becoming a fortune teller. xDD (+ my current obsession with xxxHolic… sigh…)
Basically, they’re 22 Major Arcana and about 56 Minor Arcana in a tarot deck. The 22 Major Arcana are used in divination and stuff~ They symbolize a journey — or, more specifically, life’s journey.
The Fool, which is the first of the Major arcana, is the protagonist of a story, and the rest of the Arcana represent the Fool’s journey, or the mysteries of life, etc. This path is known traditionally in Tarot as “The Fool´s Journey.”

Here’s a list of them all, along with what I think each of them represents. (Of course, I’ve learnt about them before xD;)

0 The Fool ~ Childish, ability to tune into the inner workings of the world, wisdom, appreciation of beauty, naivety, risk-taking.
1 The Magician, The Mountebank, or The Juggler ~ immature, gaining knowledge, somewhat swell-headed but righteous
2 The High Priestess or The Popess ~ Serene grace, holiness, spiritual power
3 The Empress ~ Strength, protection, maternal instinct
4 The Emperor ~ Strength, all-around power, sometimes greed
5 The Hierophant or The Pope ~ Formality, spiritual power, discipline and maturity
6 The Lovers ~ relationships… not necessarily romance. In encompasses friendship, family, etc.
7 The Chariot ~ Self confidence accompanied by anxiety, victory, pride; External strength
8/11 Strength ~ Discipline and control. Sort of like Chariot, except its strength is more internal.
9 The Hermit ~ Reflection — looking back on how far you’ve come; solitude, inner search.
10 Wheel of Fortune ~ Luck; a drastic and sudden change of events. (Like the TV show…)
11/8 Justice ~ Atticus Fairness, logic and reason… rationality and responsibility. Sometimes with criticism and coldness.
12 The Hanged Man or The Traitor ~ Being in a spot which you can’t do anything in. Helplessness, though there is a shred of hope.
13 Death or The Trump with No Name ~ This one’s sorta tricky. I think Death represents a change — not necessary a bad change. With death comes rebirth. It’s a cycle — the end of one thing triggering the beginning of another. …Or at least that’s what I get from it.
14 Temperance ~ Feeling secure — I think this means that the change which you underwent in “death” is now somewhat regular to you. It’s synthesis, unification, healing.
15 The Devil ~ Holding on to a belief which is preventing a person from growing or being healthy — like someone getting drunk every night to ease their sorrows. It’s sort of like self-bondage; it’s something which is holding you down. However, he represents a HUGE amount of power, as well.
14 The Tower ~ Sudden change, which comes along with discomfort and chaos. It’s like, BAM, transformation. It can be good, or it can be disastrous. A lot of the tarot cards are like that.
17 The Star ~ The hope and inspiration which comes after a great change. It’s calming and symbolizes regeneration, offering guidance.
18 The Moon ~ When you’re following the star’s guidance, you can also fall under the care of the moon. It’s basically the lack of clarity, confusion, questioning yourself a lot… general anxiety.
19 The Sun ~ The beam of hope which follows the uncertainty of the moon.
20 Judgment or The Angel ~ it usually is associated with Christianity’s “final judgement.” Decisions are being made, and one is accepting themself for who they are.
21 The World ~ The end of the journey. You’re stopping and looking back –all which you’ve encountered, everything. Represents satisfaction, good feelings. It doesn’t encompass EVERYTHING. It’s usually like one subject. In that case, the journey begins again with a new subject — and you’re at the “Fool” place once again.

SO THERE. Those are the 22 major Arcana in tarot reading. :3 They’re amazing. I could go into more detail — like what their card images symbolize — but then I’ll be here all night. xDD

Finally, I’ll post the results of one of those “Which Major Arcana Type are YOU?!” quizzes which I’ve done recently.

You Scored as 0 – The Fool

The Fool is the most complex and most contradictory of all the Tarot cards.
“I am not a number, I am a free man”.
The Fool represents naivety and childlike innocence – yet the Fool is wise.
He carries only what possessions he really needs He journeys through life, tasting everything it has to offer then letting it go and moving on.
The Fool is a risk taker, often shown with one foot over a cliff showing us every new beginning has a risk. Whether the Fool represents opportunity or danger one thing is clear: this world needs more fools.

0 – The Fool
75%
XIII: Death
75%
IV – The Emperor
69%
III – The Empress
69%
XI: Justice
69%
VIII – Strength
69%
VI: The Lovers
69%
XVI: The Tower
69%
II – The High Priestess
63%
I – Magician
63%
X – Wheel of Fortune
44%
XV: The Devil
44%
XIX: The Sun
38%

…I guess it isn’t really accurate, though. I mean, there’s no Star, no Moon, no Hermit, no Hierophant…still, pretty cool. xD

Ah, youth.

March 12, 2009

When I was a kid, I loved toy trucks, sand boxes, swing sets, and mud puddles. I hung out with “the boys” and got into trouble constantly — I was unable to grasp the form of “authority,” and so I ran around rampant for my first 3 years in school.
I’ll never forget that day — about 10 years ago — when the cafeteria was selling those hot dogs. I loved them, but I couldn’t afford one. My friend, Alexa — one of my few female friends — couldn’t get one, either. Therefore, we devised a brilliant plan underneath the teacher’s desk. Some people left their food, unattended, on their desks. To “teach them a lesson”, the two of us nabbed the sausages from the hot dogs — since we really didn’t care for the smooshy, cheap bread — and crammed them in our mouths before anyone could take notice of our little devious deed.
Afterwards, we grabbed our rulers (they were our swords) and ran off to the school’s field, to play “Samurai X” with another one of my classmates — Joshua.
When the two girls returned to their desk to see the sausage-less hot dogs, they freaked out… but they never told a teacher (or if they did, the teacher brushed them off), so Alexa and I got away with it.

…Is it bad that, 10 years later, I still feel victorious?

This Is My Symphony

January 24, 2009

The book which I’m currently working on is called “Symphony.” It’s a fantasy — not all dragons and elves, but it’s pretty detailed. It opens up the world so that it’s in “layers,” or different dimensions, each with their own customs and whatnot which, in turn, affect the characters. Speaking of which, the main characters are Aiden D’esparis, Kana Marianne, Amaya Kumori and Seth. (Seth’s lack of a last name is on-purpose, of course. I didn’t get lazy. Really. >.>;)
I chose the name “Symphony” because a symphony is made up of people — different people, who play instruments which don’t sound the same, yet… they can still come together, despite those differences, and tell a beautiful tale. And it’s the characters who make a story worth reading, right? I’m focusing a lot on characteral developement for this novel — giving myself a chance to brush up on my dialouge-writing skills and whatnot.
As for the characters, I guess I should talk about them! x3

symphony

(yes, I know. I have MAD tablet skillz.)

First up is… Aiden. Aiden, Aiden, Aiden. xDD He’s incredibly unconventional. I’m REALLY proud of him, because his personality isn’t suitable for a “hero” at all. He’s got a short fuse, glares at everyone and everything, is horribly violent and, in a nutshell, comes across as a complete dick. But since I want my characters to be as real as possible, he obviously has several different sides to him. As the story progresses, he tends to get a bit… dorky, so to speak — and he jokes around a fair bit. He’s actually very emotional, and if you read between the lines of his dialouge and actions, you can pretty much see “The Real Aiden.” His backstory is that he’s “The Chosen One” of his dimension — but something goes terribly wrong, and his powers don’t seem to activate. This, of course, was a circumstance beyond his control… yet, people of his dimension freak out and eventually he developes a reputation as a “demon,” who was trying to lead the world to ruin. After living under this pressure for a long time, Aiden finally snapped. He denies being “The Chosen” altogether now, and was able to travel to Pandora’s dimension. He doesn’t plan on turning back and going home, either — to him, “Home” doesn’t exist.
Kana is an innocent, sweet, yet cursed girl. She was born with the curse of misfortune, meaning that she has horrible luck and everyone who comes into close contact with her ends up getting injured — or negatively affected in some way. At first, only small things happened — like her friend’s bracelet snapping — but as Kana grew, so did the intensity of the curse. The event which pushed her off the edge was when the guy she was seeing, whose name I’m going to change, got into an “accident.” Whether he survived or not is something which is revealed later on in the book — Kana refuses to talk about it. Kana is pretty spacey, and, like I said, innocent — but I’ve planned out a few scenes where she shocks everyone with her knowledge on… erm… “certain subjects.”
I decided against Kana’s curse affecting her physical self. Kana’s the type of girl who cherishes her friends and loved ones more than herself — if the curse affected her, then it wouldn’t…hurt her as much, so to speak. It’s a bit complicated, but it makes sense to me. xD; It’s like… she loves them, but she’s afraid of being with them because she doesn’t want them to get hurt. I think them getting hurt will, in turn, hurt Kana even more — especially since she would know that it was her fault.
Amaya is…well, I haven’t planned her out as much. She’s the hardcore member of the group. She’s tall, lean, and kickass. (The small, chibi-esque sketch doesn’t do the character design which I’ve conjured up in my head justice). She’s an assassin from her village and takes direct orders from the Chief of it. Amaya is also unconventional, she does what she wants when she wants to do it… she’s straight-forward and doesn’t take any b.s. from anyone. I think Amaya is based on the person I want to be, actually. xD; Her backstory is still in construction — she joins Kana, Aiden and Seth a bit later on though.
Seth is my love. He was the first member of the group who I ever wrote about. I remember it so clearly — during Winter Break, I was listening to Castle On The Hill from the Edward Scissorhands soundtrack. I sat down and just typed up a scene which fit the melody — Seth’s “prelude”, the opening scene. Before I knew it, ideas were flowing. Danny Elfman’s work inspired me to name my novel Symphony.
Anyway. Seth is basically a mystery. Technically, he’s dead. The “antagonist” of the story killed him right as the story began — however, Pandora was able to revive him. The process itself is a lot more complicated, and it’ll make more sense when you actually sit down and read the actual thing… but yeah. Seth has a strange, naive character. He’s very unpredictable and tends to worry a lot — very caring, and he tries his best. xD; His backstory and purpose for being IN the story are both really complex, I think a bit too complex — I’ll have to narrow it down. But, yes. Seth’s soul is living in a medium, which is his “corpse” — except, it’s not a corpse, since it’s actually functioning as a proper body. It’s not perfect, though (JEEZ, SO MANY CONTRADICTIONS) and sometimes it randomly shuts down and he goes into a “doll-like state.” On the other hand, he can also go into a “supreme state”, where he is pretty much unstoppable and can destroy anything in his way. o.o;
The story focuses on 2 “sides”. One is that of Pandora, the eccentric magician who’s character is WAY too much fun to write, and the other is of the “antagonist” who currently lacks a name. xD; Both are after a box with tons of power — its possesion runs in Pandora’s family (i.e: Pandora’s Box). This box has the power to do all sorts of things which fit into the story and various events in it.
Pandora, herself, is a LITTLE bit like Yuuko from xxxHolic, but the two of them are actually very different. Pandora is less serious, for one — though she has her moments. She’s bombastic and silly, yet she’s one of the most powerful characters to be introduced in the entire storyline.
Honestly, I wanted to write something which could be made into a video game. I KNOW, SHOOT ME NOW. xD But I wanted it to be a good story, too — since good games always have very interesting storylines. The characters feel like my children, which is sort of strange (since all of them are older than me, ahaha), but still cool. =] As of today, the book is 23 pages long on Verdana, size 9. I took a break from writing because of exams — but I plan on resuming soon, though. I’m hoping I can tell this story to the very end! My goal is to make it as fun and casual to read as possible — whilst still making it a deep, interesting and EPIC story, which one could analyze if they wanted to. Wish me luck, I’ll definitely need it. o.o;

Hehe.
– Jamie xx

1oo Things About Jamie

January 7, 2009

I did this list last year, but I can’t seem to find it right now. My friend, Robin ♥, did it, so I figured I’d hop on the bandwagon and do it, too. :D
(Plus, right now, I feel sick to my stomach. This should help me take my mind off things?)

1oo Things About Jamie
1. I feel like a flamingo in a crowd of pigeons
2. I consider myself open-minded, but I cannot stand conservatives
3. My body is in Trinidad, but my heart is in Japan
4. The reason why I like Art so much is because I hate reality.
5. I don’t dress to impress — I dress to kill
6. I can trip over air
7. I want to dye my hair electric blue but I can’t find/afford/get my hands on any dye
8. Sometimes I want to feign my own death, just to see those who would care
9. I am not nearly as quiet a person as people tend to make me out to be
10. I wish I was born on October 13th, purely because that date sounds cool
11. Spazzy people are the best
12. I hate chick flicks with an almighty passion
13. I love the colour pink, but red is my favourite colour
14. Imitation may be the sincerest form of flattery, but it annoys the hell out of me.
15. I’ve ALWAYS wanted to walk up to a stranger, hold out my hand for a handshake, and say, “Meet your newest obsession.”
16. I’m happy that I have a few close friends who I can trust with anything — they don’t expect me to act a certain way, and I can go to them for anything. I think that’s way better than being popular.
17. Though I do wish I had more friends.
18. I want to meet April, Megan and Resa in person someday.
19. One time, in the mall, I told a random man that I was (still am) a virgin and he eyed me strangely. I don’t know, I was feeling random. Looking back on it, it would’ve been really, really creepy if he actually replied.
20. I am terrified of hippos. I’ve been so ever since I saw a documentary on them. One ripped a guy to shreds, ate one dude’s head, and tore off another one’s leg.
21. I hate sloths. (The animal.) Edward and Robin are fully aware of this, yet BOTH spammed MSN chat windows with pictures of them last year. >__>
22. I don’t give a damn if it’s “thrilling” — I will NEVER zipline. Ever.
23. I secretly love how people look when they’re smoking.
24. I just got a tablet. How the hell do I use it?
25. TOKIDOKI IS THE BEST THING EVER. I cherish everything which I have from this line.
26. Headaches and migraines seem to accompany me wherever I go
27. I love cats xD;
28. I hate how the majority of these points start with “I”.
29. The reason why I use emoticons is because when I don’t, I’m afraid I might come off as bitchy, mean, or stuck up.
30. I hate being formal. For my sister’s wedding, I wore my black converse shoes underneath my stuffy dress. No one noticed.
31. Usually, I say I like being short, but I really wish I were 6ft tall.
32. I hate boobs and I really don’t want my chest to grow any more than it has. D: (..I am aware that this is rare for a teenaged girl. x3;)
55. Tim Burton is my main role model. I would marry him if he proposed to me.
56. The Ting Tings = the shizz.
57. Robin and I are going on a road-trip across the world. It has been dubbed as “The X-Perience: With No ‘E’, Because We’re Just So Bad Like That.”
58. On this trip, we want to befriend a gay man and/or a drag queen.
59. The reason why most of my recent stories have a same-sex couple in them is because if any of my works, for some strange reason, get published or become “big,” I want people to see that homosexuals aren’t different from heterosexuals.
60. I sometimes feel like I am 2 different people. Sometimes I know EXACTLY who I am, and at other times I haven’t the slightest idea.
61. The environment which I’m in really effects me.
62. I don’t like photographs or paintings which don’t tell a story.
63. I like taking pictures of myself, as vain as it may sound.
64. I sort of wish that I were paler.
65. Nausea is the worst thing ever. And right now, I am INCREDIBLY nauseaous.
66. I hate when people call me Jamie Lee (seriously; not in jest like my friends do sometimes)
67. I really want a lime green top hat with a neon blue bow.
68. Drop beats, not bombs.
69. I would be lying if I said that the number 69 doesn’t make me giggle.
70. I am paranoid when it comes to how people see me whilst simultaneously refusing to change myself for them. Yeah, a pretty deadly combination.
71. I idolize an IMVU developer known as Ange. He’s a huge inspiration to me, mainly because I know about him and his current situation, and therefore I know how strong he is. (Plus, he makes awesome stuff.)
72. I don’t like how people expect men to act one way and women to act another.
73. My favourite genres of music are Electronic, Alternative, Emo, Hardcore, Techno, Trance, Pop Punk, Punk, & jRock, though I listen to a little Pop/jPop.
74. I hate when people ask me who my favourite band is because I can never answer with just one
75. I also hate most “rebellious” teenagers who think they’re so hardcore. It’s so fake.
76. I wanna get married in a white or black kimono
77. I hate animal-print.
78. I don’t show people some of my art because I’m afraid they’ll misunderstand it and make me go to therapy.
79. Paramore has a way of hitting the nail right on the head.
80. I’m agnostic. No members of my family know this.
81. I LOVE the Lolcatz book which Robin bought me. Like, a lot.
82. When I’m an old woman, I want to live in an old mansion with my husband in some isolated area near a conservative town to scare the living hell out of residents.
83. I want a boy BJD so that I can make him pretty. Not sure why.
84. The phone just rang really loudly, totally out of the blue, and I let out the most girly scream ever. o_O
85. I’ve always wanted to send PostSecret something
86. I want to go to a rave later on in life; when I actually look like myself on the outside.
87. I wish that clouds were like…solid, because it’d be really fun to sit on one
88. I cannot listen to music when doing work or studying; I need to be in an environment where I can focus soley on my iPod.
89. That being said, when I listen to music in my bedroom, I tend to run around rampantly.
90. I can recall almost every single thing which I learnt in my Ancient World History class in 9th grade. Never will I forget what Cleisthenes did in 508 B.C, never will I forget the whole Rise of Nations ordeal which I oh-so-proudly explained to my friends last year before exams, never will I forget what a hoplite is, or who the Fathers of Medicine, History, etc, were. That’s one class which I really miss.
91. I want to cut down on the amount of meat I eat.
92. Dear homophobes, suck it. Love, Jamie.
93. I don’t like to start conversations on msn and I hate having people who I never talk to in my contacts list. I clean it out frequently.
94. I like Myspace more than Facebook.
95. Honestly, I worry a lot over whether or not I’ll ever get a boyfriend. But I don’t want to give the wrong guy the honour of being “Jamie’s First Love.”
96. I think unrequited love is one of the most painful things in this world.
97. I might have said this before, but I LOVE piercings and I am going to get my lip pierced once I graduate from high school, regardless of what anyone says.
98. When Alice In Wonderland comes out in 2010, Mai and I are totally going to cosplay as characters for the premier.
99. Sanrio and San-X = pure love
100. I think milk and spicy fried chicken make a perfect meal when put together.

Blind Cats & Passing Thoughts

December 16, 2008

This is a strangely fun thing to do… Basically, open up a drawing program — like Paint or Photoshop — close your eyes, and draw a cat.

HERE ARE MY MONSTROSITIES DARLINGS~

kittyithink1
meyow

They didn’t come out so badly, did they…? xDD

I’ve been experimenting with my photo editting software. I made a new banner for this blog~ Also, I’m colouring a black and white image from the manga series, Kuroshitsuji. It’s actually a lot harder than one might think…Robin’s caught on with the design bug, and she happily coloured a picture of an apparently very hardcore palm tree. Straight from an online colouring book, no less. xD

Tomorrow, my sister, my sister’s husband, and my brother arrive — along with Nicole, my two-year-old niece. Haven’t seen them in a while; they live in England. I’m also going on a small shopping trip with Robin at around noon — though I’m not so sure on what I want to buy. I think I’ll just pick up a couple of Christmas presents for the family…
On Wednesday, I plan on doing some baking. Should be fun. I’ve been slowly getting into the Christmas spirit — not very much so, but the more you complain about not getting into it, the longer it takes to actually do so, right? As I type this, I’m sitting right by our family’s synthetic tree. Even if it’s not real, this tree has been here ever since my first Christmas. It’s pretty damn special, if I do say so myself. Besides, cutting down a real tree would damage the environment. xDD I think I’ll do some photography later on — the ornaments look gorgeous, gathering every beam of light which they can~
I’ve been working on a novel. It’s not very long — only about 3100 words so far. It’s not like anything which I’ve ever read. I’m making it fantasy-esque, however not sickeningly so. (I honestly can’t stand fantasy. Names are too complicated. JUST NAME THE KID BOB, FOR CHRIST’S SAKE, NOT GORBARXIR IV.) I would label it as a modern-day fantasy, but that makes it sound like some horrible rendition of Sabrina: The Teenage Witch. (Jeez, I forgot about that show…) Besides, when I think “modern-day” I think of Gossip Girl and The Clique. Dear god, imagine Gossip Girl gone fantasy… *shudders*
It guess, if I had to label it, it would be… unique. xD I have fun working on it at random moments — it’s style isn’t anything major; it’s descriptive yet casual, complex yet simple, and I adore all of the characters in my own special way. I guess a more detailed post about it will come up in the future; I just thought I’d mention it.
It’s just about midnight as I write this, though according to WordPress, it’s 4 in the morning. (I really should fix that time. Eh.) Yes, folks, I’ve become nocturnal. Again. Mornings are hell for me. My mother doesn’t bother coming into my room — she settles for banging on the door and shrieking my name. I swear, one of these days… xD These days, I’ve been heading bed at 2 a.m. Not very good, right? I think I’ll stick in an extra 2 hours of sleep and cut this post short. It’s pretty pointless, anyway. xDD